the oracle offers you a file
this is a text file. it is displayed as is below:
i had already mostly grown out of my first album 'nest' by the time i was
ready to release it.
it just felt weirdly dissonant, i was putting my real feelings into my music
but then sugarcoating it in this cutesy edm electropop sound and i felt like
everyone picked up on that instead of what i had to say.
i wanted to make music that evoked my emotions both tonally and lyrically.
this past year has been weird for me as well, both personally and as an artist.
i didn’t sell enough cd’s and cassettes to break even, i kept getting burned
out when i invested my time and energy in doing promo on social media, i
found it was difficult for me to conjure up e-mails to send to people in the
music industry to try to sell myself as an artist, i was doing live shows here
and there but with every one i felt like something was going >wrong, and i was
lucky if i had someone to help me out during the show and have people that were
fans of my music show up.
i’m still thankful i was able to do all this, and i don’t mean to sound ignorant,
but i’d be lying if i said these experiences didn’t make me feel alone and
isolated, and didn’t make me reconsider my career as an artist.
i really wanted to make another album.
i really wanted it to be [mostly] finished by the end of this year. i really
wanted it to be something significant to the world. something that made me feel
like it was worthwhile to put all this effort into my music. something that was
profound to people. but i couldn’t get myself to do itif i was going to end up
exactly where i started again.
instead of spending the next two years or so doing that i decided to take
whatever i had alreadyfinished and release it as an ep this year and call it
a ‘proof of concept’. at least then i could show everyone the music i’ve been
meaning to make for the longest time. and i wasn’t going to give in this false
hope that i could get a lot of people to listen to my music really quickly by
making tiktok videos. i wasn’t gonna take my social media presence seriously
at all anymore.
luckily i’ve also met a lot of awesome people this year and have gotten to
hear what my music meant to people, which reignited the spark for me. i’d like
to focus on my musicianship again in 2025. i’ll definitely release new music,
maybe another ep or the album i was originally intending. i really want to
continue the live shows as well, and better than i did previously.
whatever happens though, i don’t think i’ll ever quit making music,
i’ll always have to scratch that itch. even though i’m flesh and bones
it’s my automaton.
if you’ve read this far, thank you for your attention,
i really appreciate it.
i hope it gives some insight to my choices as an artist.
i wish you a happy new year.
file has been added to your index
30 dec 2024
1 jan 1970